Stream of Concienceness

Back in my high school education, for an English assignment, we had to do a writing project using stream of concience as our only tool. It was cool. Reading some of my friends, and my own stuff was pretty weird... the things was to just write whatever came to your mind. At times it can be quite revealing! That being said, here goes another attempt at Stream Of Concienceness writing!

Why the hell am I doing this. Like I have nothing else to do with my time! Dang, my back hurts. At Karate last night I got to be the test dummy and got twisted and banged around alot, but you know what, I probably learned more than the rest of them. Karate is cool. I don't know how long Julian and I will be in it, but I would like to see both of us advance at least to the brown belt level. It is a good way to build self confidence, assurance of safety, and keep in shape. Speaking of shapes, I have noticed something lately. Crop tops and beer bellies. Those hip hugger jeans, the ones that ride dangerously low on the hips and the mid-rif exposing shirts that alot of the ladies are wearing, they are great! I am all for them. Someone deserved to get rich for creating them. However, I see alot of girls wearing them around campus and town who should not be. They are wearing them and exposing not a nice flat tummy and slender hips but a spare tire and a beer belly that would rival many guys. Just because you see it at a store and can afford to buy it, does not mean you can wear it! Come on! If you want to wear the stuff, then at least look fit enough to wear it! I don't think that flabby male stomachs and belly rolls sticking out of shirts is appealing to many women, and I can safely say the same can be said the about mens opinions of women. It ain't sexy! Get in shape! A flat tummy is sexy. Male or female. I would not like to be out of shape and over weight. I love scaring squirrels and small dogs. They always seem like they are a few minutes away from a full blown heart attack. I know that sounds mean, but eh, who cares. One of my volunteers told me earlier today that she and her husband are splitting up. What is the deal with that? Is it our society, our values, or just that splitting up is so easy anymore and there is no real stigma attached to it anymore. I am glad that my parents never split. I don't think anyone in my family has ever split up. I cannot be totally sure, but it seems like that is a correct statement. No one in my family has ever had.. nope, not true. My cousin Mark split from his first wife. And my neice Shannon.., although a marriage that lasted less than a year and begun when you were 16 was not likely to survive. Most of us hoped for the best but it did not last. She is much better off now anyway so maybe it was a good thing. Another good thing is gaming. I will be gaming tonight. Looking forward to it. I kind of like being a gamer geek. Nothing to be embarassed about. There are more of us than most people realize! Just don't wear it on your sleeve or make it the only thing you do or talk about and people will not look at you funny. It is kind of like religion. Don't push it where it is not wanted and usually it will be okay. Not that I think religion is something that people can do without. I think everyone has some kind of religion they hold close. They may not think they do, but it is there. I wonder if my daughter is practicing riding her bike. I hope she can do it all herself soon. I am pretty hard on her getting her to learn, but she is doing it. I would like to see her take off on her own! We can then go bike riding! It will probably cost me money. I need more money. I need, no I want a new motorcycle. I don't need one. I want one. You have to have goals! That is mine. Another goal I have is to reach a physical goal by my 40th birthday. I want to be able to bench press 230 lbs or more by October. Right now I can 190lbs about 6 times. It is a goal so that it keeps me going back to the gym to stay in shape. Staying in shape after 40 is alot harder if you are not in shape by the time you get there. So I am starting now. Fortunately, I have stayed in shape most of my life... thank my dad for those genes. Maybe I will buy hip hugger jeans and a crop top. Never mind. I would like to go camping. Camping where there were no cub scouts or planned activities. Be it with just family or with friends, I would like to go camping. I would like to go camping with just my son sometime. I think it would be cool. Someplace out of the way. I need to start making plans for vacation and for my birthday. man I have a bunch of stuff to get done this summer. Drives me crazy all the stuff I have planned. I need to say no more often. I need to remember my resolution! Say no! No! No more writing. I'm Done.


Well, that was useless.